She's angry,

"she’s always angry, 

it’s the only way she can feel sad and strong at the same time."

When the love starts to drift...

and you can feel it, but instead of feeling sad about it, you're kind of looking forward to it.
It's kind of exciting, in a way, how your kisses don't really ignite me like they used to.
It makes me wonder if this is temporary, or if it's slowly shifting to what it will be.
To what it already is.
Things can't be high all the time, is this a low period?
Or is this it?

So much i want to say...

but i can't figure out exactly how to say it.
mmm, wierd last night. was an awesome night.
haha talked to my hmmm, "on my level/game" friend.
he's soo controversial. but it seems i can see myself in him.
b/c i love being missunderstood, and he's SO missunderstood.
I told him that (not trying to be stereotypical or racist/discriminant) well, mostly a lot of the black guys i kno seem to be very cocky ,if not, "confident". of course though he told me i was racist and was mean. big news. it seems to have turned into a routine where he tells me i'm mean wenever i talk to him. obviously he was just kidding.*yay* lol. well, in response to my comment he told me the reason he was soo cocky was because he "needed" to be. Because that allows him to not let girls walk all over him. haha. Well;

-This was in my drafts...I want to date it back to '09 but I can't find the date I wrote this.

The other night I told you...

I told you that I hated you. The scary part is that I meant it.
"I'm always going to hate you a little bit,"
And it's true.
Sometimes the fire creeps up on me when I think about it.
I wonder if I've truly forgiven you when the thought of it still makes me feel this way.

"You'll forgive the one you love until you hate them."

Can you truly love someone and hate them at the same time?