I need a

HUG!
it seems everyone is goin through a hard time.
i hate to admit it;
but i've been in one, internally, for a while now. The part that irritates me the most is i have no fXckinn clue of wat is making me feel like this. i just kno that i feel like shit inside, and on the outside i fake the funk that i'm fine. It's like i'm trying to convince myelf that things ARE fine, fake it till yooh make it? Time heals all wounds? ehhh idk about this one; what if not the wound, but knowing the scar will stay is what hurts the most? At times i feel unhuman, at times i feel like i've been goin w/ my day w/ no emotions or thoughts worth rethinking. At times i feel like breaking free and not giving a cookie crumb. problem is, i do care. I care and think about wat would happen aftter. The problem isn't drugs, an overdose, or a drink; the problem is that i think.